For the past couple of weeks, I’ve been dealing with an INTENSE full-body ITCH that, at times, makes sleeping at night impossible.
It brings home a very real and practical invitation to question, sincerely, what it is I think I’m experiencing.
Also, to see just how much my assumptions and interpretations color and shape my experience. I’ve experienced two very different sides of the coin.
- On one side, in the beginning, the dominant assumption was… “This is happening TO me, and it’s a major interruption that is IN THE WAY. This is more evidence as to why life is dumb.”
- The other side… “This is happening FOR me, as there is something going on in the body that is crying out for my love and attention. This is more evidence as to why and how Life is so brilliant and supportive.”
In the first example, all I want to do is fight the experience and find something that will quickly suppress the itch. There is the assumption that life clearly made a mistake; which, interestingly, makes me feel like… I am a mistake.
In the second example… I get super curious; and honestly, in a very deep way, if I get sincere with myself, it makes perfect sense why my body would be screaming for more love and attention.
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You see, there is a sincerity within me that has been recently asking life for support as it relates to being kind and supportive to all parts of my human. I was feeling a bit lost and alone, drowning in habits and patterns that really didn’t feel supportive.
This crying out of my body with an intense itch, really forces (?) or… deeply and intensely invites me to prioritize what it is I actually crave.
You see, comically 😂 , the physical pain of this symptom simply cannot be ignored. It’s much easier to ignore things when the pain is ‘manageable,’ but when the pain becomes unmanageable or unbearable, I HAVE TO do something about it, or, investigate what’s happening in a much more focused and present way.
So, even in the irritation, there is this deep comical gratitude that says… “Thank you, I hear you. This is exactly what I’ve asked for. This is not against me, this is clearly for me. This is not “In the way,” this is THE way.”
In the shift of perspective, there is a healing in both the inner and outer. Not only is there a change in how I see the body, moving from fear into more love, but there is also a deeper care in how I treat the body and what I put into it, and this is drastically reducing the symptom/itch.
On the surface, sure, an allergic reaction. But… It’s so much more than that.
This experience is helping me to help myself. Life is brilliant.
